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wednesday 6th january 2010

New year, New start. Right?
WRONG.
LOL - nothing has changed.
yet.
eating habbits are so so bad after christmas.
and i was doing quite well before, i even panicked about HAVING to eat at christmas
and then i started to eat
and eat
..and eat..
EPIC FAIL!
so i started to not really care again, and then new years eve someone took photos of me with a guy i got with
-eugh- removed tags straight away obviously! and then she said he'd commented it not nice things..
probably something along the lines of,
WHAT WAS I THINKING SHES SO FAT
i nearly went to look but tbh i dont really want to know what it says
so that put me back on track.
im DETERMINED to be skinny.
i really want to meet this guy because i quite like him, but i keep saying no when he asks me to go see him because i dont want to meet him until i'm skinny! otherwise he'll take one look and me be like WTF and run off
haha. i laugh but it probably shouldn't be funny.
ahh i wish i was just naturally skinny!
life would be so much easier.
i need a plan of action of what to do..but browsing through sites theres NOTHING good, except for that one pro ana site
i always use.
i need some more thinspo
something to really trigure me.
i guess ill just start off by eating as LITTLE AS POSSIBLE
and i really need to do excercise but my sleeping habbits are f*cked after the holidays so im falling asleep all the
time, exams are next week and i need to spend every second on revision or i'll definately fail.
i'll fail anyway.
ohwell, i'll do my best.
things HAVE to work out if i want to get with this guy anytime soon, and i so want a guy atm!
wish me look
think thin.
love FATTY <3x